This fine morning I am going to introduce a fine young man by the name Erik.

Erik is my friend turned boyfriend, turned sambo, turned fiance.

He is amazing.

The thing that really caught my eye to Erik the first time was his calmness. He didn't say alot or do anything to draw attention. Thats when I new that I wanted to get to know him and I did.

We could talk about everything and what was so amazing with Erik then and still is , is that behinde this silent person was so many thoughts, smarts and wit.

I learn from him every day.

Erik is kind hearted, funny, smart, talented, caring and so much more than words can say! I could probably go on for days talking about him but there is no time for that now :)

He is a very talented musician. He plays in 3 diffrent bands all of them are awsome if you ask me :)

The scramblers, We are she and Nora trion. I highly recommend to check one or all of them out.

http://www.thescramblers.se/

http://www.facebook.com/wearesheswe

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Noratrion/107637779286513

I never thought that I would have the luck to find somebody like Erik. He is my rock, my calm and my everything.

He truly is one of my best friends and that is what I have always wanted in a relationship, to be together with my best friend.

He makes me laugh everyday and he makes me feel loved eveyday. What more could I ask for?

Erik Eurenius, my love

This morning I coughed up my lung so if anybody is interested in a fairly new lung give me a call cause it's just lying here :(

It's way to early to be up, on a sunday come on! But i was coughing and coughing and when I was done I couldn't fall back a sleep.

This weekend I fell off the wagon. Friday I ate a few chips ( I didn't like the taste...) And yesterday I ate some more chips ( the taste was better) and some cake :(

Now I feel lowsy! My stomach is messed up. So now I know it's totally worth it, to stay away from that much fat. I don't know it I want to do this but I have to here is my meal list for saturday

Meal list

Breakfest- Fiber ceral with milk

Lunch- left over tacos

dinner- Pork with a creamy sauce with mushrooms and onion served with Hasselback potatoes

dessert- Kladdkaka and ice cream

snack- chips

Yesterday I took a walk down town cause it was such nice weather, it felt warmm even. It was a misstake, I got so sick. When I came home my head was pounding and I was couging. I went to bed and slept for like 2 hours. No good. Well now I know that I still have to take it easy and not over do it.

It looks like it can be yet another beautiful day here in Härnösand. 

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Sometimes we fall apart.

Sometimes we feel like giving up.

Sometimes we just don't feel good enough.

Sometimes we lose everything that makes us strong.

I am frustrated and mad. When I am frustrated and mad I am very very hard on myself. I can even be very mean to myself. (One should never be mean to one self) which dosen't make this easier.

I am irritate cause I don't see any diffrence, after 6 weeks of working out and 10 days free from sweets and chips, I don't see any drifferance on my body.

Am I obsessing? Probably, and it's making me mad.

This was not going to be about obsessing, this was going to be about me!

Trying to reach a goal is a long and hard jurney, there is alot of ups and downs. Sometimes you are really happy and strong other times you feel weak want to give up. Obviously I am at that stage where I just want to give up cause I don't feel strong enough to do this. But that is alright, I have to tell my self that it's alright to feel weak and vulnerable.I don´t always have to be strong.

This is tonight, tomorrow is an other day.

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Happy Fresh Friday!

Today I have been busy.I have been spring cleaning!I am sssoooo tired.

I am happy to announce that I am feeling much better. Yesterday was the worse day. I was tired, coughed, swallowed alot of snot and had a fever.Now I feel better but I still have to take it easy :(

It's Fresh FRIDAY! I don't know why I get so excited when it's friday cause I am off every day...Maybe because everybody else gets excited so I get excited with them :)

I get so extremely  happy when it's clean in the apartment. No dust ball, the kitchen floor is spotless and you can just smell the cleaness here!

I am considering eating some chips tonight. It's been along time and I feel ready!

Now some of you might think that 10 days is not along time but for me it's like a lifetime. I haven't decided yet but I might...

Meal list

Breakfest- skiped

Lunch- Ceasar sallad       

Dinner- Tacos

Have a fresh friday ya all

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I can't really breath through my nose and I don't understand where all of this snot is coming from. I am convinced that my brain is turning to snot :(

I have my own toiletpaper roll and a BIG plasticbag by my side so I don't have to run to the bathroom all the time.

Work was good today. Now 2 have become 4 and they are a band :) SO I hope that they come back tomorrow and play some more.

When I got home I was surprised by fruit  , cheese and bread. It was very good:)

Now this sick girl is going to jump into bed and get a goog night sleep.

Meal list

Breakfest- fiber ceral with yogurt

Lunch- tuna sandwitch

Dinner- left overs, pork roast

kvälls fika- garlic bread, grape, pear, passion fruit and cheese

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Today it's worse.

My nose is runing, my throat is sore and I have a horrible dry tickle cough.

So right now I am trying to take it as easy as possible cause I have to work at seven.

This week I am working at a youth club by the name "Kåken". 

I'm in charge of the music. Yesterday there were two tennagers that wanted to play and sing and it was nice. I hope they come back today so I have something to do :)

I love working with people and music, they are my two favorite things in this world. So  to be able to combine the two and get to work with it is amazing!

I didn't get a chance to right down my meal list yeasterday because a bunch of us friends went out yesterday and just had a nice time. I didn't get home until midnight and then I was tired so I went to bed.

Meal list yesterday

Breakfest- fiber ceral

Lunch- left over lasanga

Dinner- roast pork with mushroom,onion and cream served with potatoes

snack- ham sandwitch

I am a restless and I can't start working out again until next week IF I'm not still sick that is...

So today is the one and only day this week I have alot going on.

At one o'clock I am taking a 3 1/2 hour course ( it's for my drivers licens).

When that is done and over with I come home eat and then it's off to work for 2 hours. Right now the kids have winter break so I am going to work at a youth club and have music with the kids that want to play.

I am sick today. My throat hurts and I am coughing.

Why ,oh why!?

So I am not allowed to work out :( It makes me mad cause I had really gotten into it and now I have to take a small break...I hope I don't struggle to pick up again when I get better.

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I can't remember if I heard it on the radio or if I read it in a magazine, it's not really important.

Studies show that a woman will be on some kind of diet 30 years of her life! On average.

That is so crazy and super sad. Not all women will be on a diet for 30 years on average but the majority and I am sad to pronounce that I am one of those women :(

Why would we put ourselfs through that!? Why?

Well I am one woman that will not be apart of that anymore!

I believe in eating right and doing what is good for my body but I am no longer apart of the starving diets or no carbs diet or any other diet that makes me feel unhappy and hungry. Cause those diets are not good for ME. It might fit someone out there but not this gal.

With that said you all know that I am on a free spree. I decided to do that cause I was not happy with myself not becuse I want to fit in somwhere else than in my pants. We all have our happy weight, not a weight that we feel that society say that we sould have, but a weight where we are wonderfully comfortable. 

That is my goal.

I have also realized that I feel much happier and relaxed after I have worked out a bit. Working out is not for everyone and I thought it would never be my favorite thing to do but it is nice :)

So what I guess I'm trying to say this lovely evening is that if you decided to try a diet of your chocie and you happen to be one of those women that will do it for 30 years be sure that you are doing it for you and nobodyelse.

 Meal list

Breakfest- fiber ceral

Lunch- meat ball sandwich

Dinner- Lasanga woth ground beef, mushroom, peppers,onion and goat cheese

snack- Apple

Treat- popcorn

If you have a bad sweet tooth and you are trying to stay away from sweets this gum is my suggestion to you. It is amazing and helping me ALOT. Don't know if you can get it in America but you can buy it in any store here in Härnösand.

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