I am not ashamed to say that I love my birthday.
I celebrate that I am alive :)
I will, this week, celebrate every day in some way that I turn the big 30.
Why not celebrate that you have survived 30 years of life?

I start my week by going to a type of spa to relax. I am excited!

30 here I come

We all go through hard times for diffrent reasons.
A loss of a friend or family member, a broken heart, being away from the person or people you love, betrayal, being sick, broken down, the list can go on and on and on and on.

In the middle of these hard troubles we can feel very alone. But the thing is we're not! That is the beauty of the down side.
We have family and we have friends.
We have people that want to take care of us and help us.
The question is do you let them? When times get dark do you really let people in?
I have always found it hard to let people see me at my lowest point. I want to come of as a strong person that can take care of myself.
Reality, everybody needs someone. Alone isn't strong. Together is stronger.

Next time you go through hard times ask someone to be by your side.
Let a friend hug you until you feel a little better. Put your head upon your parent's lap and let them brush your head, no matter how old you are. Let your partner listen to your problem and help you figure out how to solve it.
Call somebody, anybody that you trust and just talk, talk until words make sense.

As a friend, daughter, sister and wife I wan't to be there for the people I love.
So I bet that the friend, daughter, sister or partner you have in your life wants to do the same for you.

Sometimes...just sometimes I surprise my self.
People think it's strange that I can bake a cake but not boil an egg...I guess it's a little strange.
And now I have almost masterd the art of pain au chocolat. Almost, because I didn't make the dough.

Me and my husband Erik went to Paris about a month ago.
And every morning we would eat pain au chocolat with my amazing aunt.
So yesterday, naturally, I had cravings for just that.
Erik found a recipe online and I excepted the challenge :)

When I took them out of the oven I got sssssssoooooo excited that I jumped up and down and hit my hand, hard, it hurt.
But it was worth it cause they looked amazing and they were totally tasty.

I often forget that I can do what ever I set my mind on doing. That is a side of me that I like.
I am super proud of myself.
Some of you might think that that is a silly little thing to get so excited and proud over but for me it's like I have climbed Mount Everest all the way to the top:D

Just a little reminder:
When you succeed, no matter how big or small, you should get excited and be proud of your self.

Good night world

Her name is actually Mina Maria.

Mumu...

Mumu is what I have called my sister (and still do sometimes)  and what I called Mina the first time I met her.

Mina is my niece and god daughter she remindes me so much of me sometimes.

The love I hold for her is endless.

She is the reason I moved to Sweden from America.

She is the reason I decided that I needed to take control of my life.

She is the reason that I sit here today in my appartment at peace.

I owe her so much and she dosen't even know it.

When she gets older, 18 maybe, I will tell her the story....My story.

The story about a lost girl that found her way thanks to a magical creature.