I am trying to write a book and I am using my own life and the time I spent in Wisconsin as an inspiration
I start thinking about that time a lot and I wonder what point of view I should tell the story from.
Should I tell it as a young girl in her early twenties that can still get upset about somethings that happen and didnt happen OR should I tell the story as a a woman in her early thirties that can see it in a totally different way now.
It's kinda like therapy. I go back in time and rethink it and sort things out and I get sad, happy and mad.
I get sad because I think about the friendships and loves that I lost all because I wasn't honest with myself. Happy because I had a lot of fun and mad of all the stupid things I put my self through.
But what happens is that I want to change the story the whole time.
I need to close that chapter of my life and I think that this is the way to do it.
But who do I start?

Egentid...Vill man ha den måste man se till att ta den.
Ett toalettbesök kan vara en sådan stund om ens partner är hemma.
Man tar med sig telefonen, datorn, dagens tidning eller en bok. Stänger till dörren bakom sig (låser kanske till och med) tar ett djupt andetag och njuter att den dova tystnaden.

Jag har märkt att jag får väldigt sällan egentid om jag inte aktivt väljer att ta den.
Alla människor är olika, jag är en person som behöver en liten stund för mig själv för att ladda batteriet.
Så just nu tänker jag ta denna lilla stund och "make the best out of it"

Oh my lord it's been a long time!

The last time I wrote it was in the begining of September and I was still pregnant.

Pregnant...It feels like forever ago, 7 months and 7 days ago to be exact:)

2 weeks late our beautiful baby boy came into the world.

It was not an easy delivery. It ended up being a c-section and when our love came out he was all blue and not breathing.

No color, not responsive, not breathing BUT he did have a pulse.

Baby boy is a fighter :)

There is so much to write about, I mean it has gone 7 months already, it is just to much stuff.

I keep a jounal that I write everything down that happens on our journey the first year with baby and myself.

It is not easy, fun and sweet all the time so I write everything down SO in case we have a baby #2 we can go back and remind our selfs of that :)

Our little boy is a good baby for first time parents :) Already at 2 months he started sleeping through the nights.

I don't want to become one of "those" parents that brag about or compare my child.

Let me tell you all that it is not easy now a days. There is so much braging and comparing. If it isn't what your baby can do it is about that your baby is eating and wearing.

It is a circus out there and it is HARD!

Hopefully I can resist it and not become a part of it.

Wish me luck:)