Ok, so I have been back at work for 2 1/2 weeks and yesterday I got a cold... It sucks!
Things are not that fun right now and work has been the one thing to keep my mind off of being pregnant.

The week before I started working again my my hands started really hurting. I would wake up and I would not be able to use my fingers and hands. My fingers are very important in my line of work.
I went to a specialist and it turns out that because of the pregnancy I have extra fluid in my body and that fluid is pressing down on my veins and nerves in my wrist and that results in to that I have a hard time using my fingers and hands. But that hasn't stopped me from working, though at the end of the day I am in pain.

A good night sleep is something that I don't know what it is anymore. I wake up so many times per night that it feels that I really don't have a chance to fall into that beautiful deep sleep.
But I have still gone to work, it has been my salvation. The old ladies and gentlemen are so happy that I am back and that gives me strength.

I wanted to work three weeks at least before taking early maternity leave so when I got sick yesterday my heart broke. I feel like I have let my self down and all of the people that expect me to show up every week to sing...It is hard for me.

My anxiety is back. I cry a lot. I am scared. Work kept me grounded